Thursday, February 26, 2015

The "Eals" of Life

Odd title for this post.  I agree.

Ok, stay with me.

This morning, alone in a hotel room, I turned on Joyce Meyer and heard an awesome testimony of a young woman who endured years of sexual abuse.

She said something that hit a chord in me.  However, in this moment, I cannot remember it. But it's in my spirit.  I know it.

So, I'm going to type, trusting The Holy Spirit to bring it to life. For me and maybe for you.
How does one become whole and healthy after enduring years of sexual abuse?
How does one become whole and healthy after betrayal?
How does one become whole and healthy after hurts so deep it seems to cut you in two?
How does one become healed - totally and completely with no residue?

Here's where we get to the "Eals". 

Feel.  Reveal.  Deal.  Heal.  

We must allow ourselves to feel the emotions that situation, sin, or addiction carries within us, no matter how difficult or tramautic. We should not, cannot, stuff the emotions if we want to heal.  No matter how painful.  This where you acknowledge truth to yourself.

Then we must reveal the secret, problem, or sin. It must be acknowledged.  First to The LORD. Second to someone trustworthy. A confidante. Dr. Phil is famous for his words, "You can not change what you don't acknowledge."  Muster up the courage to speak it out loud. Tell someone.  You are on your way to being healed.  This is where you acknowledge truth to God and others.

OK. This next stage is where I believe we lose people. Why? Because it can be the most difficult stage. The most time-consuming stage.  This is the "work" stage. In our "instant" society, we don't have patience for this stage of the healing process:

We must be ready to deal with it in terms of getting counseling or having someone pray over us, going to an awesome Bible-based program such as Victorious Overcomers, etc. This is where you acknowledge truth that was once a secret and held you in bondage to it.  It's no longer a secret and the chains of bondage have been opened for you to get free. But, you must make the decision to see this process through.

My own inner healings took years to work through. One step, one stage at a time.  But, the reward was freedom, transformation, wholeness, and health. 
Heal = freedom, transformation, wholeness, and health.
Jesus came to heal the broken, the hurting, the devastated, the sorrowful, the angry, the bruised, the demon-possessed, the addicted.  He can only do so though if we allow ourselves to feel, reveal, and deal.  When we trust Him enough to go through those three stages, we will come through to the final stage transformed, whole, healthy, and free.



Secrets are to bondage, as truth is to freedom. 


I'll shout it a little louder this time: Secrets are to bondage, as truth is to freedom.




And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.  ~ Jesus Christ, as recorded in John 8:32

May you and I trust The LORD enough to allow the "eals" in our lives. If anyone wants to share briefly how they have walked through the "eals" process to give God Glory, please do so!  Testimonies are powerful tools The Holy Spirit uses for His Body of Christ to be exhorted and encouraged and to find the courage to go through the process for themselves. Please share.  

Because of Him and Unto Him,







Love, Be Free

(Do Not Know Who To Give Credit To)

God IS Love

Love, Himself, lives within

Love must be given wings
for it is not ours to hold onto

It is meant to be given away

Just like Jesus did


God IS Love

Love, Himself, rules and reigns within

We must give Love, Himself, wings
for He is not mine to hold onto

He is meant to be given away

Just like God, The Father, did


God Is Love

Love, Himself, desires to be free

He must be extended to all
for He, Love, is for all

We must let down the walls and let Love free


Because of Him and Unto Him,











Monday, February 23, 2015

I Pledge Allegiance...

I pledge allegiance to...

If I were to ask you who you are loyal to, what would your answer be?

Your spouse?  Your family?  Your church, ministry, or cause?  Your friends?  Loyal to your local community stores/businesses?

Hopefully, you are to all of those.  But, I ask you to think about this as well: Are you loyal to God?

At the first sign of trouble, do you question Him?  

When your prayers don't get answered as you like, do you get mad at Him; doubt Him and the trustworthiness of Who He is?  Do you put the brakes on faith?

I've had a couple of people ask me during this latest trial in my life, "How do you still believe?"

Huh?! 

Obviously, they do not know God - really, intimately, know Him and His Character. Obviously, they don't believe His Words.

Scripture says, "It rains on the just and unjust". You take the good with the bad in life, but that doesn't mean that God fluctuates between good and bad.  

He is constant. Never changing. He causes good to come from everything evil in our lives.  He gives us rainbows after the rain.

Are we loyal to that Truth?

We live in a society that isn't so loyal to much of anything or anyone anymore.

We switch phone companies, Internet providers, homes, churches, and jobs frequently.

We switch spouses and children at the blink of an eye.

We switch friends because we get hurt or feel unnoticed or unappreciated. So, we "move on". 

There seems to be less and less loyalty in our American society.  And I've come to realize that if you don't value loyalty, you can never fully comprehend the devastation of betrayal.

Jesus Christ was the most loyal human being who ever lived.  He was loyal to His Father, to The Twelve, to His mother, to those who abandoned Him, to those who betrayed Him, to those who tortured Him.

And He is most loyal to you and I.
If you don't value loyalty, you can never fully comprehend the devastation of betrayal.
Jesus Christ is the One Constant in our lives, who will NEVER betray us. He will always have our backs. He is loyal to us even when we are not loyal to Him. He remains loyal when we choose to turn our backs on Him and walk away.

His loyalty should never be in question.   

N E V E R.

When you are loyal but are betrayed in return, Jesus Christ understands.  

He U N D E R S T A N D S.

When you are loyal but are betrayed in return,  Jesus Christ understands.  

Look what Judas' betrayal of Jesus cost The Eleven. It must have left them in a state of shock and caused such fear that they, too, denied and abandoned Jesus.  

When you have been loyal but betrayed in return, it is devastating.  But, Jesus Christ understands.  All we should do is take that pain, confusion, anger, and sorrow to The Lord for He understands the devastation. 

He will lovingly and loyally embrace us as He weeps in compassion for us.  With us. 

His comprehension of the resulting devastation to our souls and lives is one of His greatest gifts to us.

If we are only loyal enough to see that.
His comprehension of the resulting devastation to our souls and lives is one of His greatest gifts to us.  If we are only loyal enough to see that.

Because of Him and Unto Him,






 






Friday, February 20, 2015

The Garden's Agony

Have you ever been in your own personal "Garden of Gethsemane"?  

I have.  And it is agony.

I have cried out, "Father, take this cup from me!"

And surrendered, "Not my will, but Your Will be done."

OK.  Sounds good.  Sounds like my Christ Jesus.

However, I find myself with the same cry each day for a week now.  "Father, please take this cup from me!"  The surrender to my Father's Will is obviously not complete in me yet.

I wish I could spend hours in that "garden" prayer spot. Hours is what is needed to work this out of me until I can finally - once and for all - say it with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength - like Jesus did - "Not my will, but Your Will be done".  


The word "cup" in the original means "destiny".  Jesus Christ was facing intense physical torture, the unspeakable agony of the Cross, and separation from His Father for the first time in Eternity.  All because my sins were upon Him. That was His "cup".

As a human being Jesus did not want to go through such unspeakable horror. He had to battle it out in His Soul in order to get to the place of "Not My Will but Your Will be done".  He continued on His Path out of obedience to His Father.

....My destiny is not on the same level at all.  Nowhere near.

But, I know my Father understands my agony just as well as He did Jesus'.  I did not choose this path.  I do not want to be on this path.  

But, here I am. Even though it's a path not of my choosing, the Garden prayer spot is my choosing.  I want to totally surrender my will to that of my Father's.  Just like Jesus did.

Oh, Father, please give me the grace to accept this, if this is truly Your Will.  If it is not Your Will, then take this cup from me...That's all I can muster at this point.  Maybe tomorrow, I'll be able to totally surrender.  Thank You for loving me just as I am.

Because of Him and Unto Him,









Thursday, February 12, 2015

Love to Boast On The LORD

I am a "Table Leader" in a program called Victorious Overcomers. It's a seven-step, Biblically-based program to overcome anything in your life.  It's life-altering.

Last night at our pre-meeting meeting, I shared that the day before I sat in a very uncomfortable chair at the lawyers for four and a half hours.  When I got up I could barely walk.  Pain shot through my left hip and down into my leg.  By the time my hour's drive home was complete, the pain had also shot up into my left shoulder.  

I'm assuming it was the way I was positioned in that chair, coupled with the stress of that meeting, that sent my body into a scream.

I have a very high tolerance to pain, but this was almost unbearable. You are never conscience of how many times a day you bend over, until the searing pain makes you aware of it. (Oh, how my heart does go out to our precious Martha!)  

I had all intentions of not staying for the actual step meeting.  I went early for intercessory prayer and for the pre-meeting. I planned on going home right afterward.  

Everyone could see I was in pain, so when I was asked, I explained.  One of the other Table Leaders, who has had a 40-year battle with chronic back pain and many back surgeries, laid hands on me and prayed.

I stayed for the meeting by faith.

By the time, I drove home, the pain was less.  I awoke this morning and the pain is about 80% gone.  
And these signs will follow those who believe: In My Name they will cast out demons; they will speak with new tongues; they will take up serpents; and if they drink anything deadly, it will by no means hurt them; they will lay hands on the sick and they will recover.            ~ The Words of Jesus Christ, as recorded in Mark 16:17-18 
Oh, thank You, Jesus!  The LORD is true to His Word - a real Man of Integrity and Character.

Because of Him and Unto Him,






Tuesday, February 10, 2015

An Encouraging, Red-lettered Word

I share with you the mediation of my heart this morning:


Lies are a portrait of a man’s soul, a man’s integrity,
and ultimately, his name.”

The soul is like a soft sponge. Lies perpetuated penetrate as if shot by a bow into the soft sponge of one’s heart, ripping and wounding. 

Lies are a portrait of a man’s soul, a man’s integrity,
and ultimately, his name.”

A dark shroud befalls the heart and mind.  You scratch and claw to get out from under it’s heavy blanketing. 

Lies are a portrait of a man’s soul, a man’s integrity,
and ultimately, his name.”

Lies are a portrait of...


...Lies are a portrait of the perpetrator’s soul, integrity, and name.  Not mine! 

The lies tell of his story.  Not mine!  

The lies glaringly speak of his character.  Not mine!

~~~

Oh, Holy Spirit, thank You for speaking that one line to my heart yesterday.  Thank You, for answering the cry of my heart, "Please speak to me".  Thank You for unveiling Your Wisdom and Understanding to me this morning as I meditated on Your Word to me.


Lifting the Shroud by Patrick-Kramer

The shroud has been lifted. Thank You, thank You, thank You!  I do so appreciate You, Holy Spirit!

Because of Him and Unto Him,

Monday, January 5, 2015

Grace Space

Have you ever really thought about time?  


In our western world, we are ruled by time.  We get paid by the hour.  We schedule our whole lives around the clock and our calendars. We always seem to be hurrying from here to there because of what time and day it is.

Do you know in Heaven - God's realm of Glory - there is no time?
But, beloved, do not forget this one thing, that with The Lord one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day.  ~II Peter 3:8
God does not wear a wristwatch.  Nor does He have a calendar next to His Throne.  

We get impatient (or at least I do) for God to answer our prayers.  We are in a situation and we want God to act NOW.  

But, if a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day to The LORD, why should we expect Him to act according to our clocks or calendars?That is bringing Him down to our level of humanness.  

If you continue reading vs. 9 of the above Scripture, God clearly tells us why He doesn't necessarily answer us when we think He should.  
The Lord is not slack concerning His Promise, as some count slackness, but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish but that all should come to repentance.  
This is the purpose for "time". It's literally God's Grace Space. 

You see, when we go through adverse circumstances that try our faith, we think it's just about us. We forget that God is a multifaceted God Who is the Master of multitasking. He is at work in all those around us. All at the same time.

I do believe that sometimes our circumstances really have nothing to do specifically with us, but God is trying to get through to someone in our lives that we love and care for. He extends His grace by widening that space (we think "time" is going by and God is not answering), but He is giving us time (space) to repent before He literally closes up that space, by lifting His Hand of grace. Ok, enough is enough.  Whereas, we may have given up on them long before God would because He is so patient and longsuffering.  

God, our Father, is not slack concerning our prayers. He WILL answer according to His Promises. Right now, though, we may be in His Grace Space because of His compassion toward us. It's actually His Mercy at work in our lives. But, in our humanness, we don't always see that.  

May God open our eyes to understand that He does not operate according to our world, but His, and that His Grace Space (time) is really to our benefit.

Because of Him and Unto Him,

Thursday, January 1, 2015

One-word Resolutions

Click on the photo to go to the OneWord365 site.  

My OneWord for 2015 is  S I N G L E N E S S.  

This is how I plan on focusing in on, and embracing, my singleness this year:


I will:

S erve my God with all my heart
I mplement travel plans
N urture my heart with The Word of God
G row in grace and mercy and wear it as a garland around my head
L iberate my soul from the chains of the past year
E cho God’s heartbeat, which is joy
N egate all that is contrary to who I am in Christ
E xpel the stigma of divorce and walk with my head held high
S tep out of my box and do and try new things because I am "ABLE"
S trengthen myself by remembering all God’s benefits

What is your OneWord goal for 2015?  How will you grow in your word?

I pray that God's Grace truly would be sufficient to see us through any difficult times that may lying in wait for us.

Because of Him and Unto Him, 


Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Unbroken

The ball is being readied, as is Times Square - for the thousands and thousands of people who are pilgrimaging into New York City to witness the dropping of the New Year's ball.

2015 is upon us and here I sit, contemplating my future.  But, I absolutely don't have one iota of a clue as to what the future holds for me.

I await on baited breath for some judge, who does not know me from a hole in the wall, to make life-changing decisions about my finances in the now and for the future.  My stomach gets agita just thinking about it. His decision will alter the way I live and probably where I will be able to live.

I feel like I've had enough "altering" for a lifetime. But, no...more is to come. UGH.

Alece and I went to the movies on Christmas day for the long-awaited Unbroken. We stood in line for it, and passed by others in line for the next showing as we came out.  It was worth the wait.

However, it was very difficult on the soul to watch the brutality of life circumstances and the darkness of man's souls without God.  What a human being can endure blows my thought processes out of whack.  And just when Louie thought his life was altered enough, along came another brutal circumstance and physical brutality beyond comprehension. A modern day Joseph for sure.

I came away feeling a bit ashamed for allowing myself to feel as if my life has been "brutal" this past year.  Nope. I can no longer use the word "brutal".

Do I feel prepared for what is around the corner for me?  Nope. 

Louie didn't either, I'm sure.  But, God poured out His Grace to Louie to allow him to endure his brutal trial until the end was to come. Completely broken, yet unbroken...

I've been completely broken (so I think), and I'd like to think, "...yet unbroken".  But, more "circumstances" will be coming my way, of that I'm sure. My trial is not yet over. So, I guess the "unbroken" part is still yet to be determined.



All I can do is pray for my God's Grace to be sufficient for me as the brokenness of my soul arises in unbroken determination (as Louie Zamperini did) to forge out a new life for my single self.  Oh, God, my Father, grant me Your Sufficiency.  


Thank you, LORD, for Louie Zamperini. Thank You for Your Grace in his life and raising him up as an inspiration for so many. I will remember his last ounce of strength and determination and I know it will help carry me through.

(And thanks to Angela Jolie for directing such an outstanding portrayal of Louie's life.)

If I had my way, I'd see that your new year was filled with health, prosperity of soul, trouble-free circumstances, and all your needs being met.  But, that may not be the case, so what I do wish you all for 2015, is no matter what comes down the pike in your life, God's Grace will be sufficient to see you through, and that your heart would not turn bitter. Happy New Year!  And go see the movie or read the book.

Because of Him and Unto Him,


Monday, December 22, 2014

Swan Song of The King

I learned a new term this morning thanks to Reader's Digest's column Word Power.

"Swan song".

"Swan song" means: any final performance or appearance. 

For example: "Derek Jeter made his swan song for the New York Yankees in his 20th season this past year."

From the moment of Jesus' conception in Mary's womb, His life was preparation for His swan song.

As is ours.

We go through daily life with no swan song in mind.  But, maybe we should. 

Jesus did.  His one aim in life was His swan song - His death, resurrection, and return to Heaven.  
Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, Who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.  ~ Heb.12:1-2
Thanks to: www.bazz-photography.deviantart.com


My beloved Jane Haile always said that she wanted to be so close to Heaven in prayer that she would just keep going. And that was her exact swan song. We were praying with her and just annointed her for an upcoming mission trip.  And Jane "just kept on going".

Jesus' whole life was preparation for His swan song.

So is ours.  For we, too, are Heavenbound.

                Food for Thought:
What do we want our swan song to be? 





Because of Him and Unto Him,