Monday, January 5, 2015

Grace Space

Have you ever really thought about time?  

In our western world, we are ruled by time.  We get paid by the hour.  We schedule our whole lives around the clock and our calendars. We always seem to be hurrying from here to there because of what time and day it is.

Do you know in Heaven - God's realm of Glory - there is no time?
But, beloved, do not forget this one thing, that with The Lord one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day.  ~II Peter 3:8
God does not wear a wristwatch.  Nor does He have a calendar next to His Throne.  

We get impatient (or at least I do) for God to answer our prayers.  We are in a situation and we want God to act NOW.  

But, if a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day to The LORD, why should we expect Him to act according to our clocks or calendars?That is bringing Him down to our level of humanness.  

If you continue reading vs. 9 of the above Scripture, God clearly tells us why He doesn't necessarily answer us when we think He should.  
The Lord is not slack concerning His Promise, as some count slackness, but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish but that all should come to repentance.  
This is the purpose for "time". It's literally God's Grace Space. 

You see, when we go through adverse circumstances that try our faith, we think it's just about us. We forget that God is a multifaceted God Who is the Master of multitasking. He is at work in all those around us. All at the same time.

I do believe that sometimes our circumstances really have nothing to do specifically with us, but God is trying to get through to someone in our lives that we love and care for. He extends His grace by widening that space (we think "time" is going by and God is not answering), but He is giving us time (space) to repent before He literally closes up that space, by lifting His Hand of grace. Ok, enough is enough.  Whereas, we may have given up on them long before God would because He is so patient and longsuffering.  

God, our Father, is not slack concerning our prayers. He WILL answer according to His Promises. Right now, though, we may be in His Grace Space because of His compassion toward us. It's actually His Mercy at work in our lives. But, in our humanness, we don't always see that.  

May God open our eyes to understand that He does not operate according to our world, but His, and that His Grace Space (time) is really to our benefit.

Because of Him and Unto Him,

Thursday, January 1, 2015

One-word Resolutions

Click on the photo to go to the OneWord365 site.  

My OneWord for 2015 is  S I N G L E N E S S.  

This is how I plan on focusing in on, and embracing, my singleness this year:

I will:

S erve my God with all my heart
I mplement travel plans
N urture my heart with The Word of God
G row in grace and mercy and wear it as a garland around my head
L iberate my soul from the chains of the past year
E cho God’s heartbeat, which is joy
N egate all that is contrary to who I am in Christ
E xpel the stigma of divorce and walk with my head held high
S tep out of my box and do and try new things because I am "ABLE"
S trengthen myself by remembering all God’s benefits

What is your OneWord goal for 2015?  How will you grow in your word?

I pray that God's Grace truly would be sufficient to see us through any difficult times that may lying in wait for us.

Because of Him and Unto Him, 

Wednesday, December 31, 2014


The ball is being readied, as is Times Square - for the thousands and thousands of people who are pilgrimaging into New York City to witness the dropping of the New Year's ball.

2015 is upon us and here I sit, contemplating my future.  But, I absolutely don't have one iota of a clue as to what the future holds for me.

I await on baited breath for some judge, who does not know me from a hole in the wall, to make life-changing decisions about my finances in the now and for the future.  My stomach gets agita just thinking about it. His decision will alter the way I live and probably where I will be able to live.

I feel like I've had enough "altering" for a lifetime. But, no...more is to come. UGH.

Alece and I went to the movies on Christmas day for the long-awaited Unbroken. We stood in line for it, and passed by others in line for the next showing as we came out.  It was worth the wait.

However, it was very difficult on the soul to watch the brutality of life circumstances and the darkness of man's souls without God.  What a human being can endure blows my thought processes out of whack.  And just when Louie thought his life was altered enough, along came another brutal circumstance and physical brutality beyond comprehension. A modern day Joseph for sure.

I came away feeling a bit ashamed for allowing myself to feel as if my life has been "brutal" this past year.  Nope. I can no longer use the word "brutal".

Do I feel prepared for what is around the corner for me?  Nope. 

Louie didn't either, I'm sure.  But, God poured out His Grace to Louie to allow him to endure his brutal trial until the end was to come. Completely broken, yet unbroken...

I've been completely broken (so I think), and I'd like to think, "...yet unbroken".  But, more "circumstances" will be coming my way, of that I'm sure. My trial is not yet over. So, I guess the "unbroken" part is still yet to be determined.

All I can do is pray for my God's Grace to be sufficient for me as the brokenness of my soul arises in unbroken determination (as Louie Zamperini did) to forge out a new life for my single self.  Oh, God, my Father, grant me Your Sufficiency.  

Thank you, LORD, for Louie Zamperini. Thank You for Your Grace in his life and raising him up as an inspiration for so many. I will remember his last ounce of strength and determination and I know it will help carry me through.

(And thanks to Angela Jolie for directing such an outstanding portrayal of Louie's life.)

If I had my way, I'd see that your new year was filled with health, prosperity of soul, trouble-free circumstances, and all your needs being met.  But, that may not be the case, so what I do wish you all for 2015, is no matter what comes down the pike in your life, God's Grace will be sufficient to see you through, and that your heart would not turn bitter. Happy New Year!  And go see the movie or read the book.

Because of Him and Unto Him,

Monday, December 22, 2014

Swan Song of The King

I learned a new term this morning thanks to Reader's Digest's column Word Power.

"Swan song".

"Swan song" means: any final performance or appearance. 

For example: "Derek Jeter made his swan song for the New York Yankees in his 20th season this past year."

From the moment of Jesus' conception in Mary's womb, His life was preparation for His swan song.

As is ours.

We go through daily life with no swan song in mind.  But, maybe we should. 

Jesus did.  His one aim in life was His swan song - His death, resurrection, and return to Heaven.  
Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, Who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.  ~ Heb.12:1-2
Thanks to:

My beloved Jane Haile always said that she wanted to be so close to Heaven in prayer that she would just keep going. And that was her exact swan song. We were praying with her and just annointed her for an upcoming mission trip.  And Jane "just kept on going".

Jesus' whole life was preparation for His swan song.

So is ours.  For we, too, are Heavenbound.

                Food for Thought:
What do we want our swan song to be? 

Because of Him and Unto Him,

Saturday, December 20, 2014

The Holy Blogger

Poetry is the spontaneous overflow of powerful feelings: 
                           it takes its origin from emotion recollected in tranquility.                                    ~ William Wordsworth

I would say the same about blogging.  My blogging definitely takes its origin from a deep place within.  My words are collected in times of quiet and peace.  

Thanks to:
My fingers type as the spontaneous overflow of passionate emotions direct them.

I am a writer; sometimes, a poet.

Blogging is an outlet for my creativity and my passion, God's Holy Word.

We are created in the Triune God's image. Therefore, our emotions come from Him, because He is an emotional God.

God, The Father, was regretful: I Samuel 15:11

God, The Father, was angry: Numbers 22:22

God, The Father, The Son, The Holy Spirit is Love: I John 4:8

The Holy Spirit can be grieved: Ephesians 4:30

Jesus wept from deep pain: John 11:35-36

Jesus got angry: John 2:13-16

Jesus was compassionate: Mark 1:41

And you know what I just realized?

God is a writer as well!  His Words came from deep places within Him.  He told His Story (History). He "blogged" it so to speak into the world-wide sphere of humankind. 

Words so alive and active that They can change a human heart.  So alive and powerful They can change family lines of dysfunction, depression, diseases, addictions, and poverty.  

For this Jesus came into this world as a human being. The Word, Jesus The Christ, through time and the expanse of humanness - "blogged" His Words; etched them on the tablet of our hearts, and uses Them to love on us, correct us, show us His Character, and lead and guide our lives in right living. 

Have a most blessed Christmastime. And may remembering why Jesus became human be the forefront of your Christmas celebration.

Because of Him and Unto Him,

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Keeping Christ

We've all seen the bumper stickers:

Keep Christ in Christmas

What does that really mean to me?


A celebration of Jesus Christ's is in my heart, soul, mind, and breath everyday day of the year.  

Even moment to moment throughout my day.

And I cannot celebrate Him without being conscience of His human birth.

So, how about a new bumper sticker?:

Keep Christ - All Year Long
Keep Christ - All Day Long

Because of Him and Unto Him,

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

The Mind Glitch of the Holy Man


Man of Faith.  

Holy man of God. 

So walking in the Power of The Holy Spirit, that his shadow healed people.

Was it always so?

Matthew gives us a picture of Peter before his tremendous anointing.  A picture of Peter pointing his finger at Jesus.  
From that time Jesus began to show to His disciples that He must go to Jerusalem, and suffer many things from the elders and chief priests and scribes, and be killed, and be raised the third day. 
The finger of "rebuke" wasn't really a  rebuke
Then Peter took Him aside and began to rebuke Him, saying, “Far be it from You, Lord; this shall not happen to You!” 
But He turned and said to Peter, “Get behind Me, Satan! You are an offense to Me, for you are not mindful of the things of God, but the things of men.”  ~ Matthew 16:21-23
Much gets preached about this portion of Scripture.  You could go on for days from what you can glean from this scenario and Jesus' Words. 

I've heard over the years that people think Peter was either very arrogant or faithless to have "rebuked" Jesus.  But, I now know different.  

From experience.

I've had fresh understanding of these verses since my own trial began a year ago.

Peter didn't "rebuke" Jesus Christ out of arrogance or faithlessness. It wasn't a "rebuke" like we think "rebuke".  

He just could not wrap his head around the Truth.  Jesus was telling him that he was going to be killed and be raised back up.  Peter's mind probably glitched at the word "killed".  Huh?  He probably didn't even hear the rest of what Jesus said.

Jesus was the King of kings.  He had a Kingdom that was going to be established in Israel.  This was Peter's earthly understanding.  His mind must have raged, Killed? Noooooo!, 

Peter's mind could not accept those words. It didn't want to accept them. This couldn't be Truth!  

It's a physical thing. 

I know. I've lived it. 

In one brief instance, a blanket comes over your mind.  It cannot think.  It cannot comprehend.  It cannot connect the words. "Huh?", is about all your mind can muster.  

One year later, I can now finally accept what my counselor has been telling me from day one.  But, it took this long for the body/mind connection be made.  It took this long for my being to de-traumatize enough from shock that it could accept Truth.

The body/mind connection protects you from shocking news.  Every system in your body goes into high gear to protect you all your organs and systems from the shock-wave that shot through your body from the words you heard.

Jesus' Words were shocking to Peter.

I even think (personal opinion) that Peter's denial of Jesus a bit later, wasn't so much as cowardliness as it was just because he couldn't wrap his mind around the fact that Jesus was just carted away by Roman soldiers. He was in shock -  all over again - and probably subconsciously his body/mind reacted: "If I deny this is all happening, maybe it really won't be happening."  "Maybe I'll wake up and this will have been a bad dream."  

Classic case of PTSD.

Ever been there?  I hope not.  But, if you have, I hope you can better relate to Peter now; that you can understand how he could say such words and/or deny his Lord. 

After Peter's inner healing on the beach (where Jesus asked Peter three times if he loved Him, to make up for the three times he had denied Him) and after his body started to de-stress from the shocks, Peter was steadfast in waiting in the upper room for The Holy Spirit.

Oh, and how God, then, was able to use him.  

Peter's mind had been on earthly things, not Heavenly. (Col. 3:2)  He wasn't thinking spiritually, he was thinking logically.  He was leaning on his own understanding (Prov. 3:5).

Just like you and I do.

Because of Him and Unto Him, 

Monday, December 8, 2014

Able (to)

Adjective (usually followed by "to")

1. Having the necessary means, skill, know-how, or authority to do something

2. Having strong or unusual powers of mind or intellectual qualifications

3. Having competent strength or fortitude

4. Having competent moral power or qualifications

5. Having sufficient knowledge or skill

The LORD God Almighty says of me, 
says of you, 

"You are able for The Spirit of The Holy God is in you."  
(Daniel 4:18b)

Because of the Spirit of God making me able,  I stepped out and did what I never thought I could or would ever want to do.

I ate at a restaurant. ALONE. Hallelujah!

What is something you thought you never could or would do but The Spirit of God gave you the courage or power to do?  Please share.  Let's give Him glory!

Because of Him and Unto Him,

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

A New Word In My Vocabulary

After walking hand-in-hand (literally) with my husband for 42 years of my life, the word

S - I - N - G - L - E

has had a very scary connotation to it. 

Single means ALONE....ahhhh!


OK, Diane, let's put this in perspective:

My other half is a workaholic who never took vacations or sick days; who worked 'till 10:30 PM, 6 days a week for all of my children's upbringing years.  Thereafter, 8:30 PM, 6 days a week. Until the last year, when he was forced by partners or paramour (not sure which - probably both) to take Saturday's off. Same schedule, but now 5 days a week.  All my years of asking/imploring for a Saturday here and there fell on deaf ears. 


I raised our children. ALONE.

Took care of the homefront. ALONE.

Took care of every household emergency. ALONE.

Took care of all the finances.  ALONE.

Stood in the gap for the family.  ALONE.

Went through major family and health crises'. ALONE.

Ate 40 years worth of dinners. ALONE. 

Married.  Yet, ALONE.

Married, yet single in regard to doing things ALONE.

I did everything ALONE except take vacations. 

So, Diane...what is the problem?

You can do this!

Remember your singleness of 40 years.  Don't believe the lies that you can't do this.  You have been doing it - for all of your adult life.


So, as this year draws to a close, my new OneWord365 for 2015 is going to be:

I'm going to embrace my singleness. ALONE.

I'm going to come out of the foxhole. ALONE.

Travel has always been a desire of mine.  And I'm going to dare to travel. ALONE.  (I'm already planning a trip in the spring to Texas to meet precious, Martha, my first blogging friend. And I might just plan other trips to the others in my Circle, if I'm welcomed.)  

And I just might venture out to eat in a restuarant, ALONE, which has been one of the most scariest things to me.  Although, I don't know why.  I've been eating ALONE for 40 years.

And, Diane, single is NOT a status.  It's just a word.  An adjective. A word that describes a person who is strong enough to enjoy life ALONE.

And I have my Beloved LORD by my side.  Who could ask for more?  He will be my dinner Companion, my travel Companion, my singleness Companion. Single, but NOT ALONE. 

He is The One Who will endue me with power so that I may enjoy life. ALONE. After all, He has given me 40 years of preparation for this season of my life. And for that I'm grateful.  

I think I've already started to embrace it!  2015 here I come.

Because of Him and Unto Him,

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Nope. It's NOT Time That Heals.

"Anniversary". One year ago. Two days before Thanksgiving.

Forever etched on the tablet of my heart. 

The first three months...shock. 

The next six months...horror. Coming to grips with truths that my soul just couldn't accept as reality. Fear of future. Anger/forgiveness. Anger/forgiveness. Anger/forgiveness.

These last 3 months...growth. Faith for the future. Joy. Peace. The beginning of the process of restoring my self-esteem. Self-discovery - who I am separate from my husband.

I've started celebrating who I am, who God created me to be. In all my quirkiness. And enjoying the self I'm getting to know.  

Tapping into latent talents and exploring the world of art - through sewing - that has been down inside of me since my children were very young.

Choosing to step out of the lifestyle my husband had chosen for us and exploring a new one.  One that is truly me.

Gone are the wonderful restaurants and eating experiences.  Gone are the beautiful vineyards we came to love; the special, relaxing Sundays we always had; and the wonderful vineyard friendships. 

But, exploring more of my desires - serving.  New places to serve and bless an other's life. Hopefully, new friendships will emerge. Hopefully, in my "doing", it will be just as relaxing.  I think it will be because that is who I was created to be. To be about others. Not myself. (I cannot tell you how many times at our special Mattebella Vineyard, I just wanted to help/serve them.)

I also discovered what was, still is: Love. Agape Love still floods my heart.  Neither the enemy of my soul nor my husband was able to steal that. And for that I hold my head up high.

And so, tomorrow - the day after the one year - I embark - fully - into a new life, continuing the exploration and celebration of self, hopefully creating art through sewing, and finding new ways to serve others.

I almost feel guilty that I've come so far in such a short amount of time, but I know it's because of you.  It's not time that heals all wounds.  It's community. It's community caring.

To everyone of you who have journeyed alongside of me - those who pray, those who have encouraging words for me, who have wise counsel for me, who have cried with me, and even those who expressed your outrage and anger with me - I thank you from the bottom of my heart!

It is your prayers, your words of encouragement, your counsel, your tears, and your truthful sharing of your outraged heart, that has helped me cope, begin the healing process, and has given me the strength and courage to step into this new lifestyle that was thrust upon me.

(And to face court and all the challenges that brings.)

And due to 40 years of marriage, I was molded into a life that centered around my husband and our children. You were an instrument of God to help break that mold and set me free to explore who I am.  

So, today, the one-year anniversary of the death of my 40-year life and a resurrection of a new one, I celebrate YOU! I am so blessed to have you in my life. You truly have been a community who cares. I continue to bless God for you and I hold you close to my heart as I come before my Father's Throne. And may I be there for you, as you have for me, should the need ever arise.

I've come a long way, baby!  WAHOO!  

Because of Him and Unto Him,